Facts

Fact: The Kite Runner is a haunting book that I can't get out of my mind. And - it is not a good idea to read it while in public, as it results in fits of uncontrollable tears.
Fact: I can't even handle being without my husband.
Fact: I am so ridiculously paranoid sometimes. Just because my husband is out of town, I feel like everything bad will happen to me. I walked through my house after I got home last night with my finger on the call button and 911 dialed just in case there was someone in my house.

Those are some thoughts that have been on my mind as of late.
Also, why have I been so tired all the time? And why can’t working out be easier – to do and to schedule?
I wonder if having a baby will make my life way more complicated or somehow easier. The time is quickly approaching that Al and I have always talked about getting pregnant. It’s just so…life-altering. FOREVER.
I have been staying off of Facebook at work as a new goal to be more productive. I’m not sure if it has increased my productivity or not, but I feel better knowing that I’m not getting paid to spend time on Facebook anymore.
Alex and I are finally on-track to be getting out of debt, and it’s more daunting than I expected. If we stick to a rigorous schedule with minimal spending it will take us about two years to pay everything off. It’s SO hard for me to not want to spend any extra money on entertainment, vacations, food, etc. But I’m getting better.

Sometimes when I’m blogging about random stuff like this I stop and look at it and want to delete all of it because I think to myself “who will care about all of this weird stuff about me?” So please comment if you do care :)

Weddings

Let me take a moment to discuss how I feel about weddings. This may take a while.
-Why, why, oh why do people feel like they "have" to do their wedding a certain way because that's the way everyone else did it? If you are having a line (THE WORST wedding tradition in the history of wedding traditions) do not expect me to stand in it. I came to your reception to celebrate with you and have fun. Not to stand in line, have the awkward moments with whomever you chose to stand in line with you, and then be herded past you as I try to sneak in a congratulations.
-Why do people think they have to spend thousands of dollars on their wedding? We had a fantastic wedding and we did it all - I mean ALL for around $3,000. (Dress, ring, tux, food, photographer, everything.) Do you really need ribbons around the chairs for an extra $300? No, no you don't.
-Guess what: I don't care that now that you're married you know how to cut cake together. (I all of a sudden became aware of how many people I'm probably offending...)
-Another guess what: It's awkward watching the whole garter thing.
-Please, don't do the piggy-back picture on your announcement. Please.
-And is it really your parents who are announcing the wedding? Cuz last time I checked we were in the 21st century and most people don't have their parents arrange their marriages.

I could go on. And on. I just feel so bad for people who stress out SO much about everything being "perfect" - and who is it for? It's for everyone else. I didn't give a hoot about what everyone else wanted for my wedding. We didn't stress, we didn't feel like we "had" to do certain things. And we had the time of our lives.

I really want to make a career out of wedding critiquing. Because obviously EVERYONE should do it just like we did. :) Totally kidding, sometimes I just have to poke fun at myself for being so convinced that my way is the right way. But seriously, it is.

This post has been thrice as long as I meant it to be. I rant when I feel strongly about something. Maybe my next post will be about childbirth and modern healthcare in general. That could go on for pages...

I'm very sorry if I have offended anyone. I would love to hear anyone's comments about this topic.

Happy Post

I'm sorry for the last depressing post. It's been a rough week. But I'm feeling better now, so I'm going to list some of the little joys in life.

- Deep fried Oreos
- Spending time with friends and family
- Eating out
- Having more money than you thought you did
- Getting a really good deal
- Having really great friends that you can always talk to and rely on
- Happy memories
- Songs that make you dance, no matter where you are or how you feel
- Puppies and babies
- Finding new recipes that you love
- Pedicures
- Modern Family

Life is hard sometimes. It really sucks other times. But if I just remember that Heavenly Father is constantly reminding me of why life is beautiful then I can still be happy.
Life is beautiful.
Life is full of joy and happiness, if you are looking for it.

-Jaylyn

I'm not an addict, it's cool - I feel alive

- Did you know that heroin has one of the lowest recovery rates of any drug on the market?
- Did you know that after injecting heroin the drug seeps into the pores, so addicts will pick at their skin and ingest it to get more high?
- Heroin can cause long-term damage to your lungs, liver and heart?
- Did you know that you can DIE from heroin withdrawls?

How about this:
- Did you know that a woman in an abusive will TRY to leave an average of SEVEN times before she stays away for good?
- A woman in an abusive relationship has no control. The abuser takes control of all her things and isolates her from any support system.

It all sounds pretty hopeless, huh?
Yeah...

Boring Post

So, the last few days at work have been miiiiiiightly slow. So here's my treat to you, entitled
"What I do at work when I'm bored and don't want to do the things that I know I should do when I don't have anything else to do".

- Blog
- Stalk Other People's Blogs. I have read through every blog that I follow, almost entirely. And sometimes I just push the "Next Blog" button at the top of the screen and stalk blogs of people I don't even know.
- Work on finances. It may seem boring to you... but I'm already bored. So it's not so boring as it normally would be. I always do my budgeting on a post-it note at work.
- Visit sites with comics to make me laugh. Favorite is ICanHazCheeseburger.com
- Doodle. It is so 6th grade, but I just can't help myself sometimes.
- Eat. I am totally a boredom eater, especially at work. And since I have limited choices it usually ends up being candy. And then I pay with a queasy stomach that night.
- Facebook. Really this consists of signing in to Facebook every 15 minutes to see if anything exciting has happened. And I'm more than usually disappointed.
- Go to the bathroom. This is a great way to break up the monotony of sitting at a desk all day.
- Text my husband every 20 minutes to see what he's doing.

So there you have it. Now you have some ideas for when you get bored!

FUNNIES!

I don't care who you are, this stuff is funny.
These are some of my favorites from this website.












That's really all I wanted to say today! Hope everyone is having a great day! Remember to laugh :)

One Year Anniversary!

I've been uber excited to post about this because we had an AMAZING anniversary. What Alex did for me could not have been any more perfect. Read on!

On Saturday we went up to Zion, with the original intent to do a hike, but it was dang cold! So we just went to lunch and walked around the shops. We found guns!




They were really heavy, just like the real old-fashioned guns.

I bought a cute new bracelet because Alex made me :)



Ok, so I love Colbie Caillait, right? Right. Alex knows this, like a good husband :)
So I come out of the bedroom on Sunday morning (our actual anniversary) and the song "Bubbly" by her was playing, a bubble machine was blowing bubbles right in front of me and the walls were covered in balloons that were filled with reasons that he loves me. I know, right??!!!?? Best. Anniversary. Ever. I stood in the doorway and totally cried for a minute :) I'm such a sucker for romantic stuff. Here are some pictures. Sorry they're fuzzy, I think the flash was turned off.




So basically it was amazing. I should've gotten some pictures of what I got him...but I didn't. I did a big print of one of our wedding pictures for our bedroom and some vinyl lettering. And I made a book of pictures and memories from our first year.

For dinner that night our awesome friend, Dan the MexiCAN came to make us a gourmet meal!! It literally was probably the best meal I've ever had. Grab a napkin, cuz you might drool when you see the pictures :)






So there you have it. Our anniversary was amazing and I am so grateful to be married to someone who loves me for who I am and who puts up with me when I hurt myself a lot and whine about it, like I have the last few days...
Check out this awesome burn from an epic incident with a Cup o' Noodles:



It hurt SO bad! But it doesn't hurt anymore, and it didn't blister, so I'm counting my blessings. So there is what's new in our life. Pretty exciting, eh?